Thursday, April 8, 2010

one step at a time

I really have no idea as to how I'll deal with the future. I've noticed that whenever I make plans for it, it usually ends up not as what I want. Organizing things at times seem to have been a waste of my time and effort especially when some sudden changes are needed to be made to cope up with the present situation--unexpected situations....

I will be living on my own next week and I honestly feel ambivalent about it. Firstly It's my first time, secondly I'll miss my dad, thirdly he'll be able to see more of the farm (someone's doing something fishy that production seemed to have been meddled wrongly), and lastly it's the mark that I am an adult (we'll I am however I grew up very well protected).

The last time I saw Clarissa I saw the worry on her face when I told her I have to climb the stairs to the third floor for my work. another worry factor was when I added the fact that I'll be moving and living in Legazpi on my own. My friends are not used to leaving me on my own. Out side my home they are my family's extension; they've protected me through and through.

I have plans but I've learned to expect the unexpected. Things don't usually come up the way we wished them to be. At first we may take the worst of it but at the long run we learn to accept it and see the beauty blossoming.

(sigh) I am worried and excited... and I know I can survive it. God is my light and His staff is my forstress...

Here's a toast to new beginnings and a new adventure....

Cheers....