Tuesday, December 7, 2010
My Free Time, Schooling, and Dreams...
People ask : Where have you been?
I answered : Working....
They ask again : Where...and what did you do....?
I replied : I became a writer and I taught college (math and logic circuits)...
Then they say (nodding) : Ah!
I get a lot of these lately: the nods, the questions, and of course the are-you-sure looks (as if I am not so sure of what I'm saying). It's been a while since I last entered the steps of my Alma Matter, and honestly--in as much as I am pleased to be back--I can't help but question other people's sincerity when they talk to me, or see me, walking along the corridors (and the surprise looks whenever I'd climb the stairs).
People here knew I grew up protected that there are those in this school that do still give me the same attention as before. I am happy to see them again and assure them that their princess-Jenny-flower-simon (as Bro. Noel would call me back in college) is all "grown up"...
Grown up?
I can now go up the second floor on my own...
I can go around the city on my own...
I can visit Legazpi on my own....
and I can absolute go fight with someone (go mad and fuming if needed) without hesitation when it comes to defending friends....
Yup! I am not the same girl as I was before....
The reason why I came back was to continue what I started....
After my mom's death, I, the girl who walked with crutches and who was not working, decided to take up methods of teaching after the new dean of the college department said it was a must for those who wish to be teachers. I was supposed to take up Masters but ACI got held up that year with it; so I went on with the Methods instead.
I spent a year taking up units in Methods of Teaching under the BEED curriculum (and additional units in Business Management and Organization which I'm glad I did take). Taking it was a challenge knowing that a certain issue was whirling around (involving me and a certain decision made that year which I do not wish to say on this page). After that school year, I stopped with only three units remaining to complete the 18 units required by the PRC (to take Licensure Exam for Teachers); I got myself a job at SLTCFI. It required me to stay in Legazpi which I'm glad I did...
The stay was great! I get to see myself glow and grow! I began to feel that confidence I lost after that certain "issue" occurred. And now after more than a year, I'm finally back for schooling. I had to rest from teaching for a while to focus on finishing my methods and at the same time take up my masters.
After more than a year being too busy to even go out with friends, I finally had that much precious time to sit back and relax. I may still be busy but at this point I finally came to that stage where I know what I want and slowly I come to realize my dreams. I want something and at present I've achieved a goal. Now I have another goal I wish to achieve--another step towards making my dreams come true..
I am happy -- though not as everybody, and even I, would wish for myself. I also come to realize how much I have missed being "me" and how much I am seeking for something....I just wish next year would be different...I wish next year would be better for me as I slowly grow more.....
photo from Alya Rodriguez
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iloveyou jenny!!! im super proud of you!!!!
ReplyDeleteI love you too Kat! Very much!!! thank you for the support you've been giving me since we were kids!!! I miss you!!! <3
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